Refiner's Fire

There was a song that I have heard before and the title was "Refiner's Fire". The message of the songs was in order for the glass to be perfect and to be shaped to its perfection, it needs to be heated or under its fire. This is my way of thinking positively with my life right now and my situation. I have bills filing up and I can't seem to make ends meet. I am still constantly stressing when my bills come and it is so hard to experience getting cut off. I am super busy with work, jam packed with things to do and things to plan and worst of all, my dog "Kelly" had to be admitted because we believe he has been infected by the PARVO virus. As they say, when it rains, it pours. I have no idea where to get the money to pay for bills, for Kelly's medical bills etc. My husband has spent a lot for me ever since we got married. I feel so blessed to  have him but I am worried that he might see me as a burden.
        I wish I can make everything better, I wish I had that gift of being able to see through things but I don't. If I don't feel like doing anything and if my brain runs out of creative things, I literally don't want to do anything.The only thing that I can do right now is pray that God even though I definitely do not deserve it, will forgive me and give me another chance. I am also feeling like I am pregnant and this is a good news if it were true but I am afraid to find out because it is so painful and depressing if it weren't true.And so haven't checked yet.
         I am very hopeful that after all of this trials and hardships, I will be able to overcome and stay calm. I am worried about Kelly, my husband, my family and my job. This is one of those days where I really need to think positive because right now, I am between depression and surrender...